My Son's First Ritual

I finally took my son with me to a ritual,Imbolc,and he did fairly well,he is only 5 and didn't really know what we were doing but I didn't want him to feel weird.The ritual was at a friends house,in her back yard,and he was a bit bored.Which means he gets naughty but the friend who was doing the ritual let him blow out the candles when the time came.I also let him have the cake and wine at the end,which was juice and cake.After that we went inside to eat and he did good with the evening in a whole.I wanted to take it slower but it was early in the evening so I took him and just didn't talk about it all and he didn't really listen to what was being said.I would love to pass this onto him but only if this is what he wants and not make him.Mark and I both want this for him since Mark is also a witch,or as he wants to be called a wizard.For Anthony and school he is getting better but they gave me this special education packet at his conference so he can get extra help,but only want I want to agree to,but I also want the best for him.Maybe this will catch him up even more and get him on track.I have yet to finish the paper work and can't remember when he did certain things like sitting,first word and first sentence.I wrote the first two in a calender but the last one I didn't.So far I can't find the calender or the other one I added the same info but I know about where to look,its just tearing it all out to look.Who knows maybe I will find the other things I have lost lol.

Catching up

My son is in school so I have a few hours a day during the week when I can do things I want to do,I am so loving it.I also love see him get better with things and praise him so much we he is.The teacher sends me messages in his folder to how good or bad his day went,she started him on a tile program where he can earn or lose them depending on how he behaves.I review the rules and such everyday while we wait for his bus.When I get him off to school and yell I am free and then I get on my pagan groups/pages and websites.Thats when I can get to work on things without trouble for my son.I hope one day I can add my son to this life I have and wait by to see when the signs show themselves.So far we have had a few not so good times and 2 bad days,we are working on this and hope it all works out.......crosses fingers it just gets better.Now we have Christopher and Justin over for the night and Anthony just gets sooooooooooo excited,he wants to do all they do.I know this is normal and after a while he gets better about the excitement.I just can't wait till monday so I can get my time but its the weekend and he is driving me crazy,I know this is a short trip but not one I want to make.

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Being A Witch

When I first found out what I am,a witch,I felt such a big weight lifted off me.....I finally figured it.I knew what I am and was all along......a witch YAY! I always wondered and knew I was different from everyone around me and didn't know why and I searched for so long and I don't even know how I found out really.When I asked someone I knew,don't remember her name really,about it and all she could tell me was it wasn't a game and to be careful.You see I already knew I had to be careful since I do that with all the things I don't know as not to screw up.When I was young I was mad and wished for something to happen to this person and it did,at first I thought wow and then I dismissed it thinking that I didn't make it happen.The second time this happened I though omg it was me and swore I would never do it again.From then on I knew I had to find answers on why I could and more so who I was/am.So there it is me becoming who I am today and I know in my heart and soul I made the right choice......no regrets. I have always loved helping others when and if I could and still do,it makes me feel I am doing good here and this earth needs it.So as I searched I found all kinds of info,like witch to witchcraft to wicca,then all the paths available to ppl.I didn't know what path to pick or even if I needed to,so I searched all over the net since I didn't have anyone to really help me on my path so to speak.When I told a friend my problem about picking just one path she told me that she thought is sounded like I was eclectic and thats how I got that and when I read a ebook called "How to live a Magical Life" I found that out.It said that wicca is one who believes in many deities and witchcraft was one who believes in one deity.....that was me lol.S0 there it is my life found,my begin of my life as a witch and my path laid before me and thats my life as a witch. That was more then 15 years ago for my witch life but as for me being who I am that was birth,which was 36 years ago and counting.

Being A Mom

I love my son so much and I know he loves me but I have to say now I understand why my mom had to be a bad mom.From when my son wakes he looks for things to get in trouble for,he is dennis the mennace lol.I am have more of a mom then a witch and I made a decision that I will work on that.I have some of the things I need and now I am going to celebrate Sabbath's starting with Samhain/Halloween.I need to get some things for my alter and I am not sure where to put it so my son doesn't get into it.He has hands that reach everywhere and gets into everything lol but I am showing him what he can and can't do and hoping he will get it soon.I can't write any more right now since he is in bed and thats the time I get things done and lots to do lol.I will try and type some more when I can.

My First Post

I decided to start this blog since I didn't have any that would tell my life as witch and a mom and here it is.I know most of the blogs and journals I have there is about 0-1 ppl that read them and maybe comment on them but I have excepted that.I have been a witch for 15+ yrs and a mom for 2 yrs but if you count the pregnancy then more lol but so far its going ok.With Mark in a different state then us I have to raise our son alone with the help of my mom and one sister.Mark and I have talked about Anthony and if he will become a witch too,or as Mark likes to call himself a wizard,and we agree Anthony needs to make that choice and he will.We will slowly,when he is ready,see the other part of our lives and that way he will have a choice of religion.I am an eclectic witch and Mark isn't really sure other then he is one but he is a healer so thats part of it.